tnps.

everyone has their own memories or at least something which they can owaz tink of. be it happy or sad. i've mine too. =D i went back to my primary sch.. tampines north. wif yzk, wei sheng, mike and chen chuan.. they are like super noisy~ we crap all the way there.. esp me and zk.. all quarreling, fighting.. ha! and me toking with chen chuan.. didnt really tok to the other 2 boys.. hehe.. been there last yr.. bt didnt realli meet alot of teachers.. tis year not so bad la.. those i noe all got c.. ms tan, mdm norsham, mr seow, mr beam, mr tay, mr mutalip and i tink dat's all.. most teachers have left lo.. kinda miss them so much.. esp mrs tam.. how great she was~ look like some super experience teacher.. me and zk tok to seow lao shi alot. he's my chinese teacher and zk's ping pong teacher.. so qiao~ he still noe me`yeah!! we crap so long.. i still rmb his words: "wo shi yong SKII mask de".. (it means i use SKII mask) it was so funni.. and there he goes, promoting skII mask again.. didnt he gets tired?? heh heh.. ms tan is still as busy wif her choir.. hais. didnt have time to tok.. mdm norsham oso.. both have their class.. realli wish can go back and tok.. realli miss those days.. being scolded by teachers and when u have graduated, it's onli then u realised how much important they are.. still lurve them as much~ almost everyone in 6.1o/2oo2 are here.. however, i didnt c zimin, ganesh, faiz, jerome, syuhaidah, rebecca, safirah, justin, jega, amir, tamil, zhen long, irfan, keane, kumar and wei ming... ok la, it wasnt realli dat bad.. onli 16 nva come =) we all still crap as much.. maybe arent dat close liao.. bt if anyone of u manage to c tis, i jus wanna let u guys noe how much i missed the olden days, and i missed u guys so much` to the guys: u guys realli have become much slimmer and taller.. ha! esp the little dinosaur..rmb that time when we bullied u?? den u was like.. ha! most of u have grown up lo.. did ur miss those old time? to the gals: did tis trip of coming back to sch reminds u of our past? did it let ur memories come back? well, at least mine did. tinking of how chinldish we are, being scolded by teachers and stuffs. guess everything the teachers do realli make a difference in our life.. after all tis yr, i still realised u realli mean alot to me.. hmm.. i cant help remember all those times when we are sitting side by side. toking and crapping constantly throughout the lessons; ignoring wad the teachers are saying. getting quarreling and fights. till tis day, i guess u'll never be replaced.. even wif my girl-friends.. i guess u are the one who can tolerate my temper and make me smile.. be it how sad i was. i realli miss u.. rmb how much we get teased.. ha.. nva mind even if u go around telling the guys all those stuffs . wadever past is past. u r still the onli person i still trust alot. so how's life? do take cares and good luck. i'm CONTENTED knowing u. it's enough for me. pls dont pester me on asking the person as mentioned above cos i wont tell anyone.. maybe those from 6.1o/2oo2 may noe. for those who dunnoe den too bad *evil grins* i wont say nor elaborate on it. no point forcing me. so if u r dat person, do add me at evelyn_selina@hotmail.com k? i realli wan to chat wif u~ ha! cya

sick.

i guess i'm realli sick. be it mentally or physically. and i mean it. i forced myself into doing things which i never lyk. and dat's for the past few months, i've been doing. i forced myself in studying late at night, in the day and practically everytym. i guess i simply wan to get good results for my 'o' my results for the progress card shld be lyk shit. i haven been bucking up in my academic. and it seems ages. since the start of tis year, i've never been doing well. guess coming to tis class is my greatest error. no doubt, every teachers was so nice and friendly.. perphas tt's the reason y i didnt wan to transfer class.. k la, will blog when i free. nid to study for my geo. dun wanna fail again.

bugis

went to bugis today to buy teachers day present wif twin spend lots of $$ ate at pasta.. super full + super expensive we ate a 1o inch pizza and a spaghetti and 2 drinks omg can anyone imagine we ate finish dat? until now was lyk super full cant even eat my dinner feel lyk a gluton gosh. tis is fattening need to jian fei lo buy alot of presents.. it wasnt considered alot la but $$ is alot.. jus eating = $2o (chin hui pay) buying presents =$23.70 (i pay) card=$2 ehx bt=$2.4o (each pay) jus going out spend so much money =( heart pain pain all my heart hard $$ gone le =( bt it's alrite cos once a tym hehe =) i tink all the teachers deserve a break after teaching our sch students =P i dun feel well thruout feel so sick and want to vomit =( dun tink yy doing the invitations for teachers for bbq.. and cards sians + siao tink i going mad le.. nowadays i cant realli tink well and i do wadever ppl say wad m i tinking? so distracted tis few tyms i realli nid a good rest.. and i can feel i'm going sick soon sians dun feel lyk taking good care of myself =x wanna get sick den i can be free frm everything.. hope i dun tink too much on certain matters i tink too much and i waste my time on them `be freed from everything`

grades.u.

i'm so worried for my results =( getting a 37 for physics is a big prob. esp when u wan to get <12> omg i realli nid to study real hard this semester to achieve my dreams so dun ever bother me wif any unnecessary stuffs. if ever u guys wan me to go out, forgive me if i reject u guys. i jus wanna to have peace and to have a clear mind all the tym. ms picca came into the class today.. she started to say how lousy our grades are esp our chem, phys and amath gosh nth was well a committee meetin was held todae tok abt the teachers day party and bbq -sry- cant say anything more =D i was asked, whether we are pengyou le.. and i was lyk.. erhx.. u say lei? of cosarent.onli committee meetings. dat's all. in the end, i agreed to wad u say goodness knows y am i crazy? and i going insane? i needed help. no matta wad, i've kept my promise all tis while.. JUS THE SAME ME -ever and ever i thot to myself as i updated my friendster profile if i didnt know abt *u* and *her* would u tell me? if i didnt know abt *u* and *her* will we be wad we are now? -guess i'll never have a clear mind. hais. wad to do? jus hope some day i can jus forget all abt tis prob and concentrate on my studies. leave me alone- i have to wake up soon liao! no more sleeps in class no more slacking jus books books and books study study and study

new skin.

i've jus changed my skin. nice rite? hehe. do comment pls. thx ^.^ in geo test today, i was fidgeting all abt and so worried.. i thot today get back the test.. den realised it wasnt.. dunnoe if is good or not.. in amath it was super shit. and is S-H-I-T. i jus dun lyk dat mr ng. so wad even if u r the teacher? =P we got to noe our progress card for amath and emath..ok. i wasnt happy abt it. i jus didnt noe y lorr.. i guess seeing my emath marks den i lyk... arghhhhhh. it's so so lousy lorr... onli 53. b'cos of my trigo test i tink.. b'cos fail badly.. lyk so ashamed lyk dat.. and my amath marks is.. 90. hehe. =) [humble] and to someone frm ur class: be it u used to be closed now or in the past. if we USED to be close, den u shld noe i hate those ppl who tag w/o their names. since u didnt noe, den i feel we arent dat close either. even if u noe, den wad the hell are u doin? and to des: errr.. it's alrite. wad's frens r for? i dun tink jus b'cos of a passing comment we will quarrel.. den our 3yrs of frenship = nth? definately not for me. =)

ok. tis was wad happen..

first, i'm realli confused. i dunnoe wad to do. ok, i dunnoe whether u meant me or her.. it doesnt matta. let us free ourself from all this trouble and to work hard to our goals: to get good results for our 'o' next yr.. i'll strive hard for myself. dat's the least i can do.. i hope at least get <12 second, sch work realli sux. i've been slacking lyk siao tis year.. *sob sob* i jus wanna concentrate in my studies and totally nth else. i might be abit anti-social le.. i'm going back to my old self.. wad happen was tis: first was the stupid geo paper which i have flunked it twice.. i realli hope all 8 of us wont be sitting for a re-re-retest animore. den was my trigo test.. i didnt do well.. the first time when i fail any math test.. i dun even noe wad is angle of elevaion and angle of depression.. wad the hell lorr.. cos all tis is learn in sec 1.. and i dun even noe them.. den was the practical test for chem.. i burned my hand when lighting the match. i cant believe it.. it's 3 yrs when i first light a match in sec.. omg. cant anione believe? i realii have a fear in fire. den i oso fail my chinese test.. it was oso the 1st tym since pri.. even my higher mt last tym oso never fail.. ='( third, this whole week i haven been feeling realli good. perphas some sort of crazy-ness.. and there is more to meet the eye. since u wanna do everything, den be it. i dun wanna care anymore. wadever. fourth, (in relation to the 3rd pt) ok, i'm unable to promise nt to show *her* attitude. it's nt the first tym it has happened. ask me to have mercy. it's nt dat i dun wan. bt too much things have happen.. if it's someother ppl.. i might be able to do so.. bt.. i'm damn rite sorry to say i cant do it. too much ppl is already pissed off. and i guess me and ch is the most. and she has hurt us alot =( i've had enough. fifth, i'm sorry abt the accusation. SRY` i realli thot it was u.. cos the way it was written and abt the IP add.. uh-oh.. heckers?? perphas. =( six, i tink.. i tink.. i've found the other side of me.

• anti social
• quiet
• wanna study hard hard de
• the one who hates eating
• the one who jus wanna be in her own world
• the one who wishes to ignore everything around her
• the one who hates reality
• the one dat doesnt wan to care about anything else more than her limit

seven, i've decided!

• study and study and still study
• ignorance
• no frenship problem; all the way after my 'o' (if u wanna hurt me now, den go far far cos i dunnoe wad i'll do.. i might jus give u a slap across ur face)
• since u enjoy all class admin stuffs, den i oso wont care animore

chem practical test on spa, so much so much.

shld i jus say it's sooo noble of u to say dat way? or shld i say i've had enugh?? i dunnoe. things are jus so f* idiot! i didnt went to the committe meeting today. it didnt last long either.. hahas. dun even noe who didnt cum.. i ***.. whahahahaha.. guess no one have dat guts to do dat.. nvm, my dear class committee.. i'll help u guys.. *evil smile* u all understand wad i mean can liao.. todae have dat damn practical test.. omg. it was a disaster.. it was oso the 1st tym when i light a match.. everything seems to go wrong.. esp the bunsen burner.. i knew it was suppose to light the match b4 opening the gas tap.. guess i was nervous and thus, a disaster happen.. i on the gas tap 1st.. den loo loo worst.. her bunsen burner tube gt a whole.. den gas leak.. omg.. dunnoe if ah lai see anot... and somemore i didnt complete the questions.. i was panicing.. i scared i fail.. hais.. jerry today came and somehow "counsel" me.. ok, he's a nice guy.. he tok to me alot.. bt he somehow veri mean.. bully me =X he shocked me todae oso.. omg =P i'm jus as confused. i dunnoe wad to do. i dunnoe wad i'm tinking. i cant tink well either.

y? y? y?

me and her was already not on close terms.. maybe tis incident might futher a greater misunderstand.. it doesnt make any difference when i say whether i mind or not cos u lyk her.. dont u? to juvone: do u rmb tis words? read down. "the chalet thingy... u wanna organise yet i dunno... where do i stand... i dun even noe u wanna organise... we are suppose to help together... but now... i also dunno wat happen.. well... i not blaming u lor... if reali gonna organise... i hope i could help lor... budden if u dun want i also nth to say... and then still i wanna say sorry whether u like it or not... still wanna say sorry lor... cos is like i reali didnt backstab or betray u or wat lor.... i think there is a misunderstanding lor... and i hurt u in a certain way... so i have my fault to a certa 1c in way onli... so sorry lor... i will respect wateva decision u wanna make..." tis is wat u say in may.. when u JUS heard the news dat i wanna organise a chalet. and mind u, it was a BBQ; nt a chalet. arent u doin the same thing to me now. u said i wan to organise. bt dat's onli plannin and u r "jealous".. i haven even tink of wad i realli wan.. WHERE DO I EVEN STAND? it shld be mine turn to ask u. i oso doesnt noe u r going to organise. bt since i've already make my stand, i dun intend to do anything abt it. if u had asked me, perphas i wont even feel so emotional. wad do u wan now? i'm realli sick and tired of all tis.

arghhhhhhhhh.....

i was on sucidial mood. everything seems to go against me .. i failed my geo, my phys.. a veri big impact for me.. never had to get back 2 tests paper in a day and realised dat i simply flunked 2 tests wif super lousy grades.. wanna jus end my life.. guess i jus didint have the courage.. i jus realised dat i wasnt doing well for my sports too.. i've realli slack alot on it.. how i wished i was ni my fairytales; someone motivitating me in it.. i realli miss those times when i can slack.. todae we got back our geo paper.. den bernard chew was sooo angry.. den he simply threw our papers on the floor jus b'cos we onli had 8 failures.. he asked who gt study den sit down.. i wanted too.. bt didnt have the guts to sit down.. hais. we used the whole 1h to study for the test lorr.. den have re-test TODAY when we jus got back our paper TODAY.. somemore answer scheme wasnt given.. i felt so stress up.. it's nt dat i didnt study.. i DID studied. i studied the forest one.. and onli 1 mcq came out.. jun came to my class during recess. she told me dat dey suffer the same fate.. haha. bt their class gt 0 passes.. den the paper kena thrown in the dustbin... kinda wierd.. bt i guess we cant blame mr chew too.. i went home wif esther.. she nice. she nice. she tok wif me and make me feel sooooo happi.. bt.. hais. y we r so fated.. hahaha.. it jus happened dat both of us wanted to transfer to 3e5.. whhahahhaha.. so funni.. luckily i didnt let ms picca noe.. or else oso counciling.. sians. actually we both r veri similar in some sense as well.. lurve ya! =) i'm still waiting for ur sms. i dun wanna be the extra person. if u truely like her, den i definitely go away de. i wont bother u. bt.. jus wanna thx u.. the advice dat u give me. i wont forget. bt jus wanna say: if u nid my help, i'll definitely help =D it doesnt matta to me whether u lyk her anot.. bt if is yes, den i dunnoe wad i'll do. ok.. i recieved ur sms le.. it doesnt matta to me dat u lyk her.. bt y i was involve? y mus u choose btw me and her?

arghhhhhh

-i hate u- i thot u noe me, understand me, let things go along wif me, be wif me in our fantasy. bt i jus realised it's jus a lie. TOTAL lie. U was d one who didnt noe wad happen; U was d one who wanted to block me; U was the one hu hurt me; U was the one who betrayed my trust. i hate u- and to the PASSER-BY: stop wad d fuck u are doin. dere r certain things dat u dunch noe dat i noe.

humph.

yoyoyoz! my dear bb stead wanna me to update on her.. omg.. when did u b'cum so bhb?? whahahaha.. learnt frm me de rite? hehes. well, U r GREAT! lurve u alots - i went to watch bewitched wif des on wed.. well, it was a veri nice movie-> rmb to learnt to twitch ur nose! hehe. had a veri nice day out.. realli. too bad we had to go hm earlier... cos of my tuition.. sians. when can we ever meet again?? i dunnoe.. - i was so angry wif those rumours dat happen todae... i dunnoe wat's wrong wif me.. hahas. i was somewat angry and upset? i dunnoe. i was luffing till my tears came down.. dunnoe is b'cos angry or funni.. FOR OTHERS TO ENTERTAIN? wad e. wad abt u being the person? - thx to kingston =) bt dun tell others. hehes. thx ferr toking to me.. =D u r a veri nice guy.. realli.

too much things here. [=P]

dere are frens hu realli mind the way u do things. and ii'm so glad dat ii have a great buddy who realli cares abt me no matta wad.. and ii lurve u lots, gal. she sees maii blog and decided to send me a mail.. ii was realli so touched. she advice me on certain things.. somehow tis tym ii feel lyk keeping in low profile.. ii dunnoe lei.. ii feel so confused; stressed; and tired. thx ferr tis~ no. 1 don't let yourself down no. 2 make sure it's nothing regrettful no. 3 i'm always beside you (yes, beside. not behind.) no. 4 know what you really want now and in future. i realli miss u; miss u so much. nowadays we r too busy wif our class.. didnt realli mit up le.... bt no matta wad, jus wanna let u noe dat~ once a fren owaz a fren make a promise rite to the end if u have the heart to stand, take me as ur faithful fren. lurve ya~ i do sincerely hope dat if ever a day cum dat u wanna a listen ear and cant find anione, dun forget, dere's a ME. yes. it's ME; ur ke ai de penguin fren worx. =D i felt so sian ferr the whole week. so much test and stuffs. jus wanna hope to study hard hard ferr my 'o's and proceed on wif my life. ii dun deny wad ms picca say: growing up in teenage life is easy.. ii realli agree wad she say... out of a sudden, life so stress up and everything. realli hope to let go, maybe migrate out of singapore and go somewhere wif nature and slower life pace... it's kinda sian here wif so much things to care abt.. market day was a disaster.. we managed to sell everything larh.. bt things were abit too fast le.. sians. and of coss*he* make us lyk wad da.. ppl were saying abts*he* bla bla bla. i feel so bored.. yawns. SPECIAL THX TO: my BAO BEI DEAR- miss ya so much and helping me to buy my stall de things.. [maybe after next yr when we free den maybe we go out together.. lurve ya!] my DES- ferr trustin; supporting and helping my honey cum si niang-ferr being dere all tis while my twin- ferr bringing me around s'pore [haha] HIM- ferr wanting to help me in my academic results. maybe jus frens arent too bad either.

demanding me.

ii felt so selfish; so demanding ii blame him when he didnt do anything wrong despite someone told me wat happen.. ii was angry bt ii didnt noe watever ferr. ytd, ii finally pluck up my courage to tell him how sry ii was. he said it's alrite.. den he jus say 'haha. it's ok de. i'm such a great person' ferr the first tym ii didnt say dat he's bhb.. maybe ii jus feel so guility and sry abt wad was wrong.. we tok alot.. on our studies; how stress up we were.. den out ii was saying how good his phy was den next tym wanna him to help me mah.. den he say he didnt jus wanna his phy to be a1, he wanna all subjects to be.. he told me dat he's a perfectionist.. he wanna get all a1s ferr his 'o'.. ii was lyk 'wow! great dream' ii jus replied, saying ii'm jus a perfectionist in amath.. ii cannot allow ani test to be in lousy grades.. den ii asked him to help me in my physics.. he was lyk.. 'oh sure. no prob. ani tym..' he's lyk such a nice person horr.. den suddenly he asked me abt my past.. den ii jus say lorr.. den ii asked him y.. he said dun tink so seriously lah.. den ii was feeling so confused..den he say betta dun lah.. betta study hard.. den ii was lyk 'yarr lorr next yr 'o' le.. cant slack.. be fren betta' den ii say yar lorr.. den he asked me wanna be * anot den ii say we be gd frens 1st ba. den ii tell him we c.. gib him a reply in 2 wks. was so tired tis week so much things to go thru.. 1st-tkss exhibition mr lai and mr hafiz were really such nice teachers! maybe cant find anione betta den them 2nd-market day preparation.. so busy. to discuss and stuffs 3rd-to clean the class and to decorate them ferr the veri veri veri veri veri veri important person (VVVVVV-IP) to cum.. so sian.. somemore dunnoe is hu.. 4th- to make sure all the labtops were in good conditions... den ii help mdm ng lorr.. XD ii'm soooo kind.. haha =P cos the e1s need to use it ferr their lesson.. ii oso can teach them the part on IT de.. ii pro sia =D